I never want to move on

You will never know...

That I have all the options to move on.

To forget you and everything we've said.

And to absolutely hate how you ignore me sometimes.

But I won't want to move on.

Because if I do, I will miss everything.

I will miss the feeling of missing you.

The way you talk to me. Full of rudeness.

The way we used to fight over each and everything.

Even betting on something that isn't important.

I will miss the feeling when I think of you and smile.

When every of my status is about you. About things we've said.

Your 2 videos I am still having it and watching it.

Your sound record I saved in my phone. 

Your demo you sent to me on whatsapp.

I did not lose you completely. 
Because you will never know. Everything about this.
I'll keep it deep down in the core forever lasting.

Unless until the day I'm gone. Completely gone.

And she will pass you everything. My memories.

Everything I have wrote down about you.

On my little booklet of poems. Based on real life story.

She will tell you how I suffered every night.

How sometimes I think I never want to let go.

Reminding me every thing we have been through.

All the jokes we tell each other.

The good times we had. I never want to forget.

I never really want to move on. Its not that I can't.

Love when you're ready, not when you're lonely.

I.lost.my.mind

I'm free this way don't try to tie me up.

Not even held me down. 

I don't stop running. I just run.

Don't track me down. We'll both be hurt.

I don't live to give you what you expect me to be.

I live for who I am. The joy I cherish. 

I never meant to reject you.

I just still wanna be the same old me.

I just want things to fall into place.

Not falling apart of it. Its complicated.

What life has gave, what had we earned?

Its not the matter of values learnt.

Its learning how to give more than you take.

I never want to take anything from you.

Done enough. You'll make me feel bad.

The best thing in life are free.

Friendship is free. Hug is free. 

That is the best I've ever wanted.

Never regret for what you didn't have.

Because they were once standing by you.

And before you know, I'll catch you if you fall.

At the edge of the cliff, flashbacks of the memories.

We'll be what we are meant to be. 

Don't harsh. Don't force. Don't hustle.

I like how we are now. Just at ease we'll be (: 

I'm here if you need.

Dang obsessions.

Dang my obsession. Don't mind me please. I'm just weird.

I like those cute hot teens with tattoos on top of their chest with words.

Of course words that mean something to them. Not just shits.

Yeah. That's my obsession. Another thing.

A good fashion sense and taste is fairly important. Not trendy. But simple.

Not trashy nor hot. But just casual and chilled. Guys in white grey and black kills.

About piercings. Dude. They are hot. But though, it depends where.

I don't fancy huge holes of piercings on the ears. Its just. A little gay.

Only piercings that I consider hot is on the ear with a sharp end.

Clean shoes is a winner. No not leather shoes. But Vans. 

A guy with swag is extremely cute. No ain't hot. But cute. I don't know why.

And all the above I'm describing. Is a white caucasian. Just white. 

These days I've been obsessed with a tumblr blog owned by a 15th year old boy named Yassin.

His blog is just attractive. Here take a look. http://metrolines.tumblr.com/

His fashion sense and everything is uber cool. Authentically cool. 

Right. I have no fucking idea why am I describing my obsession to you.

Things like that.. Lemme show you ;) 

Nice and simple. It kills me!

Vans is the best thing wore on feet  OFF THE WALL    x)

Boys with skateboard and swag like that! <3   x)

Keep it classy this way! Those outfits I mean    x)

Keep it swag like that. Gorgeous     x)    <3