Thanks for all, 2011

Here I am. Thinking about the past year of 2011. How amazing it was.
The most ups and downs I've been through in my life. Precisely, so awesome.
Well 2011 is coming to an end now. I haven't thought of any 2012 resolutions yet.
As I doesn't really plan on things. I just live on surprise. Whatever happens, happens.
This year. So many things came by and built a great chemistry and history.
No matter the consequences. Always enjoy the progress of it. You will never regret.
Too many little things that had made me smile this year.
The best thing about this year is that I spent my last year of school and graduated as a high school student.
Though it was pretty tough getting through troubles and problems. 
But between all these, there are bittersweet moments that you can't help but to adore. 
Time passes fast. Before you even get the chance to hold back anything. You lose the time.
Next year, or maybe now. Do something insane. Free yourself from the limit you set. 
Take one 20 seconds and do something you've always wanted to do but did not dare to or say something you've always wanted to say but too afraid to do so. What you need is an insane courage.
Don't impress people. Do it insanely as if no one is watching or listening. Just you.
And maybe something greater will come after it. Who knows? (:
I laughed at stupid things. I laughed at my friends who act like retards. Even if I'm in the deepest shit, whenever there is their laughters and annoyance around, I'll be smiling like a retard too.
Thinking what had I done to deserve these people? I was sad how we need to part after school.
Some goes to work. Some goes to college. Some to their own ways. We'll never end up in the same class ever again. Eating together. Laughing at the teacher. Copying homework at the last minute. Sneak out of class. Interrupting lessons. Annoying our friends. All these will never happen between all of us. 
I smile when they laugh because of me. It is only the happiest thing I've done to see them laugh dumbly.
There is nothing you see in us. But pure friendship. If anyone is in deepshit, we'll always be there.
I will never forget what had been through this year. 
She said she never thought I would ask her things about these. You know what? I didn't even expected it. I don't know what turns into these but it happened. It was bittersweet and it was great.
I'll never forget the month of September. Though there were so many things that didn't come smoothly,
but we walked through everything and I still hope to listen to your "hello" which I know I will do somehow in tomorrow :) 
The only thing I am excited about the first thing on next year is to go back to school and visit the teachers that had been so good to us. And not to forget out big feast in the school canteen! You joining us? :D It will be a freaking great buffet ever cause I'm gonna eat everything until I'm bloated!
If only time could slow down and let me have the time to appreciate enough about every beautiful things that had made for me. 
Yeah time flies like really fast. I'm now waiting for countdown to 2012 :D
But hey, don't catch the time, catch the moment. 
And this is for everyone that had gone through this tough year with me...
Should I list those really important people? Hmm okay I'll do this for the first time and only time.
I want to smile to Minli that little skinny dumbtart who did too many stupid things with me and laughed so hard together. You're an asshole but you deserve a better 2012 without bullshits. 
Cheers to Nyon who will be the most successful accountant in Penang city! 
And to Angeline, I always look for you whenever I'm troubled and you wouldn't ask me anything but just helped me. You're so gonna be a good partner eh ;)
Now Cherie... I don't know how much money she had left now as she won't stop buying stuffs but your hotness is steaming so you need to stop buying sexy clothes!
Shirleen! Stop working stop rushing things stop being so hectic. Stop now and enjoy your life for a moment. You still have more than half of your life to work so don't rush!
Jessi you're not gonna be anything but Ulat's good wife. You all are gonna be forever I know it!!
A wide smile to someone name Alvin! OMG its you!! Well thanks for everything and stop being so pissed at times. I know things are gonna be okay for you and take care! You're not as strong as me! :P
Oh shit do I need to thank you Rebecca Lim? Yeah I do. You've been a badass daughter of my mother and I want you to know that I am really disturbed when you bath at 4am in the morning!
I want to frown to you Pablo! Its been a year since I forgot... I know I'll never meet you but you've been a badass friend and stop being so desperate for love. You'll find it when its time!


Yupp I have a very few friends but these are the ones who I can really be who I am and act retards on. No reputation needed. Just me. None of them left yet... But I never hope that there will be.
Lets make forever possible and people would be jealous okay? :D 
I doubt if I am gonna publish this post cause damn this is sentimental... 
We won't know what life will lead us to but if you stick with me, you'll never have to face it alone if you just tell me and I will listen!

Until then, See you 2011. You'll be missed!

Someone like you

December is now and Christmas is yet,

I see houses and places putting up wreath,

But my mood is a harsh I don't know how to get back,

It's like you suffocate me until I lose my breath.

You're leaving tomorrow and I need to wait,

To listen to the old cracked up voice again,

Sometimes I really don't like disturbance and I hate,

When the dark comes and it reminds me of the rain.

Maybe it isn't the first card someone had wrote for you,

But it is my first card I'd wrote for someone like you,

Please don't make my another day a whole of blue,

Even it's for worst, please tell me the truth. 

Where did the sunshine boy go?

The shine young one I used to know,

The night where you used to laugh so loud,

Until December came and destroyed it all I lose my soul.

Remember when you were nice and adorable,

You still are now though things might have changed,

I always thought you were someone reliable,

Did your change of mind came?

Remember when you never missed to call?

How does it changed in a time and all is gone,

I jumped off your cliff and I fall,

I'll do it one more time just let me reborn.

Since I had last heard from you

It has been a week since I last heard from you,

Days will go by and it will all be a blue,

Are your words just a lie or it is all true?

Because when I doubt, I have no clue.

Remember when you said you will never leave,

Now that you're gone, my clouds are a mist,

Your faithful sign I hope to seek,

One day when I have the guts to speak.

Please make me no stranger,

I don't want you to be a bad reminder,

I had my pride compromised to concur,

So that we would not be a promise breaker.

Christmas is near and I don't want this to end,

How about the card, how could I send?

You know all the words I said were meant,

All had happened, and would you ever want to mend?

Changing the link soon (:

Dear readers, 

 Attention please!

I'll be changing my blog link to:

http://www.iblamesociety-jl.blogspot.com/

in two days time. 

No don't be silly. The user is not changing.

What changes is only the link

Sincerely, 

Jessica Lim 

Don't plan your death. Live before it.

What is your last word you would say on your last breath?
Who is the only person you'd want to see beyond your eyes before death?
Apart from live. Apart from everything you had when you are still alive.
What is the only achievement you would want to accomplish while you can?
Death make us learn how to appreciate more. How to never let go. 
They say everything is fated and you could never change that.
But why wait for death while you can do something better before it?
God planned the day you were born, and the day we part with life.
But he did not planned the way you want to live it. It is your choice. No others.
Who held your life? You. If you do not appreciate your own life. Who will?
Human beings mutuality is the fear of death. Who knows what is after death?
Hell or heaven or reborn? Frankly, I said those are all bullshits. Yeah people die.
But all it matters is your accomplishment and satisfaction towards your own life.
This scene is no drama. You ain't the actor of the movie. Please stop acting like it is.
This is my decision to go through these with you even the worst expectation is death.
Who cares about that? Memories are the best thing to live with. It lasts the longest.
It lasts until death do us apart. What matters is who you had made a ten mile wide smile on them.
Cherish all of them. Even if the worst comes, you still have the best thing you had ever wanted!
Something that everyone could own but somehow use it the wrong way, happiness.


Each texts costs me a penny, you soul of inhumanity. 
It wouldn't take you a lot of muscles to act to pick up a call and tell me that you're alive.