I'll be there for a friend, and I mean it

YOU TALKED NORMALLY TO ME LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED. DON’T YOU EVEN FEEL BAD ABOUT HURTING ME SO DEEPLY? MAYBE YOU DID NOT EVEN REALIZED. BUT YOU DID HURT ME SO DEEP THAT I DID NOT DARE TO CRY, CAUSE IF I DO, I WON’T KNOW HOW TO STOP. YOU CALLED. I WAS SO SHOCKED. I TALKED WEIRDLY. MY TONE CHANGED AND YOU REALIZED. I ASKED YOU IF YOU HAVE ANYTHING TO TELL ME, ANYTHING TO EXPLAIN. YOU SAID NO. WHY ARE YOU SO CRUEL TO ME? WHAT HAVE I DONE TO YOU TO DESERVE THIS SHIT FROM YOU? I TALKED WEIRDLY BECAUSE I DON’T KNOW HOW TO RESPOND TO YOU. I CANNOT JUST ACT LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED. BECAUSE ALL THESE ARE THE REASON WHY IT IS KILLING ME SO MUCH. YOU DON’T KNOW ALL THESE. BECAUSE YOU WERE THE ONE SMILING AT ME WHILE YOU WATCH ME BLEED. I MIGHT BE WEIRD TOWARDS YOU FOR NOW, BUT I WILL BE THERE IF YOU NEED A FRIEND TO TALK. JUST LIKE YOU SAID, FOR “FUN”. YOUR FUN IS MAKING IS SUFFER. BUT IF YOU ARE HAPPY LIKE THAT, JUST MAKE IT LIKE THAT. MAYBE, MENTION TO ME ABOUT YOUR GIRLFRIEND. TELL ME THE STORY. IT WILL MAYBE AMAZE ME AND I WILL BE HAPPY TO LISTEN.